Sanguine

[meccahi]

I don't know why I feel like used kleenex... and then I do...

I love how he can use me,sleep with me when it suits him, get angry about the fact that I bring up his past lies to me.. and then talk about the life he's building with his frigid girlfriend....

I love how I still let it happen..

I love how I always go back to my other Mr.Man of the past 3 years... who doesn't love me... but I love him... and it pushes friends away that I go back to spending the occasional night with him...

I love how I can get male attention... but not male affection...

I love how I can stay single for so long... and watch friends wander into their worlds of unity.

I love how I can get laid... and yet still sleep alone.

I love how I get so eager to please.. and want to be every man's fantasy... which is so not in the realms of reality.

I love how I feel like a freak in the box.

I love how I feel like a mammoth compared to other women.

I love how I feel so asinine.

I love how every person I develope an attraction for.. feels the complete opposite of what I do. I think it's a hidden talent.

I love how I feel so untalented.

I love how sleep makes the world a miraculous place.

I should sleep.

Comments

[insanity-speaks.livejournal.com]

Cheer up. The happy sounds of a new Nick Cave CD should now be in your mailbox on the email used on your info page. If there is any that I missed (9 songs on disc 1 and 8 songs on disc 2) let me know. You Send it was acting a bit weird.

[insanity-speaks.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, and if all of that doesn't work...there is still whiskey left over

[anthraxus.livejournal.com]

Don't worry. You can will have it all as well. Just stay true to yourself in the meantime.

[meccahi.livejournal.com]

Thank you thank you thank you for sending those... I haven't gotten to them yet... but I'm going to today.... got distracted by weird life events..

[insanity-speaks.livejournal.com]

No problem. It's easy to get distracted by life. Thanks again for the waffles and alcohol..I had a great time.