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meccahiIt's been an interesting couple of weeks.
I've noticed in myself patterns, and I know that I follow these patterns.. and am also aware of how much I detest what these patterns lead to.
And yet.. that well worn path gets a little more well worn.
Whether it's my weight, my motivation, my organization, my finances.. I can't seem to break the chain. And I have no idea HOW. The desire is there, but then the willpower falters, I stumble, and fall into the rift again..
I honestly haven't the foggiest idea of what I'm doing this year.
In other news..
I made this piece as a One of a Kind for Etsy. Now I am SO tempted to keep it, because I love it. But I need the money more.. so I'm thinking $65. I am seriously in love with this piece though.
All stainless steel with an antique key that I found in a small collection in one of my "collection drawers".
I have another HUGE piece that I just finished that I need to take photos of. It's...different from what I had pictured it being. But I think it's lovely none the less. And jingly... I'll hopefully get photos up in the next couple of days.
So tonight I discovered one of the hidden benefits of living in the ghetto.
Easy appliance and electronics disposal.
Last summer I had a couple come to my back door and ask if they could live in my van. Apparently they are still around, and have been talking with my Uncle, who stays here on the weekend. This would have been good to know, and apparently he hasn't told my father about this ( my uncle has mental "issues" and is slow.. but functioning). I won't get started on what I think his real issue is.. but anyways.
They pulled up tonight and said that Rocky gave them permission to take all the electronics that I've had on the porch waiting to find a place to dispose of them ecologically. They hauled all of them away and are coming back for the rest tomorrow.. so bonus. Even if it's slightly creepy.. at least they'll get some use out of things that I have no time to work on repairing.
Nothing clever here.. move along.
I've noticed in myself patterns, and I know that I follow these patterns.. and am also aware of how much I detest what these patterns lead to.
And yet.. that well worn path gets a little more well worn.
Whether it's my weight, my motivation, my organization, my finances.. I can't seem to break the chain. And I have no idea HOW. The desire is there, but then the willpower falters, I stumble, and fall into the rift again..
I honestly haven't the foggiest idea of what I'm doing this year.
In other news..
I made this piece as a One of a Kind for Etsy. Now I am SO tempted to keep it, because I love it. But I need the money more.. so I'm thinking $65. I am seriously in love with this piece though.
All stainless steel with an antique key that I found in a small collection in one of my "collection drawers".
I have another HUGE piece that I just finished that I need to take photos of. It's...different from what I had pictured it being. But I think it's lovely none the less. And jingly... I'll hopefully get photos up in the next couple of days.
So tonight I discovered one of the hidden benefits of living in the ghetto.
Easy appliance and electronics disposal.
Last summer I had a couple come to my back door and ask if they could live in my van. Apparently they are still around, and have been talking with my Uncle, who stays here on the weekend. This would have been good to know, and apparently he hasn't told my father about this ( my uncle has mental "issues" and is slow.. but functioning). I won't get started on what I think his real issue is.. but anyways.
They pulled up tonight and said that Rocky gave them permission to take all the electronics that I've had on the porch waiting to find a place to dispose of them ecologically. They hauled all of them away and are coming back for the rest tomorrow.. so bonus. Even if it's slightly creepy.. at least they'll get some use out of things that I have no time to work on repairing.
Nothing clever here.. move along.
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Date: 2010-03-25 07:24 am (UTC)I'd be sort of worried that the even more nomadic than you couple may be interested in more things they can have from the premises once they get a taste. As long as you are wary....
If it's any comfort....I don't feel like I know what I'm doing this year, either. It may just be a cloud in the way. Hopefully we'll get some light our way soon and we'll say, "Oh! Now I know where I am!"
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Date: 2010-03-25 03:04 pm (UTC)It seems to be the year of confusion. Or more appropriately, the year of seeing the problems but not the solutions.
I have found with my own patterns that the key to breaking them is to catch yourself falling into them and do something different. Even if it's not the right different thing. So long as it's not what you usually do.
For me, that doesn't necessarily lead to the answer, but it clears my mind and gives me the mental breathing room to deal more objectively and creatively with the problem.
Baby steps.