meccahi | Yeah

I still haven't left yet. The Universe is conspiring and I have finally grown old and wise enough to damn well listen.

Last night, there was the Bug Debacle.. and it just got worse. I finally bug bombed my room, and taped up the windows.. and was waiting for the allotted time to pass, while packing and doing some laundry.

I sit down and goof off on the internet for awhile when..

*flutterflutterflutterscrabble WHACK!*

A fucking COCKROACH the size of Brazil slams down next to me and scares the ever living bejezus out of me. I back up and look for something to thwack it with,.. and finally decide that, because he's a scurrying bastard that My Friend RAID will have to do. I hate using any sort of insecticide in the house that is even remotely dangerous to animals, but Fuck that noise.

And that was just the start. Throughout the night I found 5 more of those giant bastards.

And what's weird about it? I had the house sprayed and trapped for roaches 2 weeks ago. By now all of them should be crusty little roach corpses. So I don't know what the hell is going on, but I am Not OK, with it.

I finally did all of the laundry in my bedroom, after killing off the Mystery Swarm.. and washed all the tiny buggers out of my clothes. Laid down.. slept a few hours and decided I'd load the car up in the morning and then head off.

No dice.

I checked my bank account this morning. Found out that the bead store I go to double charged me on my last purchase. Then also found out that GoDaddy automatically renewed an SSL certificate that I don't need, since I use PayPal. This ultimately fucked me. I called the bead store, and they were lovely and refunded the double charge, BUT.. that takes 5-7 days to hit my account. Called GoDaddy and cancelled the SSL service and they also refunded me... which ALSO takes 5-7 days.

At this point I'm practically in tears. The universe is pointing at me not going.. but I NEED to go if I'm to make ANY money in the next few weeks. In theory.

I called pawn shops trying to hock my tools... but all of my tools are hobbyist tools, and not pro quality.. and most of the shops are overrun with tools since everyone is selling and no one is buying. I listed them on Craigslist at a reduced price..and still haven't received any calls.

I finally caved and called

grog_d_unkindly since he had offered to help before.

So now.. in debt to my ears, frustrated with the world and myself, I'm waiting for the DayStar of Ultimate Burning to go down, and I'll load up the car, give my prayers to the gods that everything goes smoothly from here, and I'll drive the 1750 miles to Kentucky, with hope in my heart.

Did I mention it's supposed to rain the first day?

I picked a very strange life. I know that somehow, some way.. I have to make this better.