Massing to the Left of Me

Thank the Gods for Red Wine.. and the ability to sleep and wander in deeper and deeper where you can't go but strangely where you still are..

I think
Ancestors linger in street lamps
and wink hello
to their kindred below
in their whipping cars
breathing in the carcinogens
to become ancestors in turn
and turning is what we do well
and burning is what we sell
to the devils like you
and it's the same like before
and it's the same like before
while you're never knowing
when the show stops.
when the ball drops.
when it's time to go.

Fortune of pictures

My fortune cookie told me that I am on the right path..

So why does it feel like skating on jello?

And if you won't let me in.... why won't you let me out?



This is me right fucking now.. at this very moment.. no makeup.. no pretenses..no deceptions... beware children.. for this is what the $3.99 wine will do to you too...



Laugh... go ahead.. you know you want to. I know I am. I realised despite the past..despite the rejections.. I'm ok with me. I love who I am for the most part.

Then again I must take into account the $3.99 wine...

Life really is good darlings. We just forget in the tumult of the words and worlds and traffic lights that hold us up from redemption...

3 Maids in a row

I know.. shocking isn't it.. I just can't sit still..

I did some random photos a few days ago.. I'd just about eat shellfish for a real camera right now.. and perhaps some talent in using it.. but that might be asking a wee bit too much from the Photo Gods..


This is the van that I lived in for about 7 years.. the Mothership.. The Mighty Blue Bubble Of Love



Part of my backyard.. with the truck that I have no idea how it got there.. it literally materialized overnight



Alternate view


The world is so beautiful and frustrating at the moment.. I want to lie in fields and smile and instead I succumb to a paycheck.. I know what it's for.. you don't have to remind me.. it's just frustrating.. soul eating at times.. to know I'm working towards a goal.. and to feel so far away from it.. where is my paradise? Where is the dream?

And one more thing

I'll be 28 in 8 days..

Fucking scary.