*WHEW*

I was listed in an incorrect filing status.

Holy sweet Jesus


They reversed all of the charges...and I just have to pay the late fees for my filing for the 4 days I did business in Georgia last year.

So yeah.

And my Dad?  Is an asshole.


I mean I knew this already... but the things he said last night were so outrageous and hurtful and demeaning. Here I am...his daughter. Terrified because of this letter stating I owe over $200K in a state that I barely do $10K at .... and his response?

"Well they're the government and you'll probably have to pay it... and you really suck at running your business. I can't bail you out of this. They'll probably never let you back into Georgia after this... or if you do go back they'll probably take you to jail for tax evasion. They'll come up to your booth and just take you away. Of course it's mostly Obama's fault.... etc"

And he continued like this for about half an hour.

I know I have some daddy issues.  Sure as hell not going to wonder why. 

I hate my family.  There.  I said it.  

I love my mom. She frustrates the hell out of me... but I do love her.  

I'm having a hard time feeling any love for my Dad right now.  It's so completely fucked up. He's never once been able to be a caring and supportive father. He's been able to give money instead of love. But that always came with a high price too. Always conditions. Always "You're going to owe me forever" .

Is this why I have such a hard time dating?  Why I always feel like I have to give my partner everything and always crave physical touch in return.  

It doesn't matter.  I see things much more clearly now.