House of Cards

[meccahi]

House of cards
House of Glass
Either way
It cracks
It shatters
It tumbles
And someone is always bleeding in the end.

Really should not be having pasta for breakfast.
Really just don't care.

Work decided to give me a raise and a promotion this week.
Woo!
For once in my life I'll be in the $15 an hour range and be a manager type person. Thankfully still for graveyards where I don't really have to deal with too much. Occasional emergencies, but generally quiet. And I can still dress casual and show my tattoos and piercings.

Funny how it doesn't really matter to me.

I wonder how much longer I can do this. Stay in one place. Stay with one job. Lose my soul?
Desire and Ambition.. one strong.. the other wavers.
Have a pill for that don't they?

Comments

[exgypsy.livejournal.com]

Ambition is the raise in responsibility and remuneration. Which is good to have while you figure out how to attain your desire. You can't tell me that the road is your desire. If it was, you wouldn't have had reasons to leave it. Figure out what your desire is and then figure out a way to make that what you do. It sounds like your ambition has gotten you to a point where it might be easier to work towards desire. I'm close to done with a career counseling program - actually I think I am done - I've gotten what I needed out of it, so there's no real point in doing the last few steps. So, if you need help figuring out where your desires could lead, I might have some insights.

[meccahi.livejournal.com]

Any help at all is appreciated.
I have figured out at least these few things for my life.
I can never stop traveling. It makes me itch to think about it. I can pause.. but never stop.
Music is the only thing in life that I really want to do.
I lust after a Volvo.
I lust after love.
I love lust.

[exgypsy.livejournal.com]

I'm down with lust. Love is okay. A Volvo? Do open mic nights. I know you have to end up listening to some really rancid crap, but at least you get to play. As for travel - check out work4travel.co.uk - I'd do it, but I've got too many responsibilities right now. I'm keeping the web address, though, 'cause I'm eventually gonna do it.

[bron-y-aur.livejournal.com]

everything seems to fall apart in the end
why does the good, the pleasure, the feeling of right
have to drain out of every situation
like blood
like breath,
like sunlight at dusk

[meccahi.livejournal.com]

Every moment is scattered prose
a glimpse, a breath
as it slides away
another slips ahead
to sieze us
and please us
and break us again