meccahi | Blood Rant

I'm tired.. and I'm being selfish. I have to rant... it's petty.. but I have to..

My schedule for work this week has been to the ends of Fucking Ridiculous and bounced back again.

Friday, Saturday and Sunday( into Monday).. work 3, 12 hour shifts.. 7PM to 7AM.. that means I got out of work at 7AM this morning...

Come back in at 2PM for a meeting that will most likely be pointless.. AND last an hour and a half. To get to said meeting I have to leave at 1PM (as in NOW).. because I live 30 bloody miles away.

Get out of Pointless Meeting at 3:30 to drive home in hellacious traffic.. get home at around 4:30.

Leave for work AGAIN at 6PM to get to work by 7PM to work a 10 hour shift.

Fucking Ridiculous. I apparently don't need things like sleep, or time to myself. Or anything silly like that.

As soon as my supervisor came in this morning I couldn't resist pouncing on her to point out how much my schedule was Retarded.

Her response? "Suck it up, you'll just have to deal.."

Excuse me? What???

I know that I'm taking two weeks off in a month and a half.. but you know what... I scheduled it far in advance, it's paid time off, and I shouldn't have to pay for it in blood..

Finally managed to negotiate with supervisor to let me come in at 11PM instead of 7. Kinda sad how thrilled I am about that. That I get to come in 4 hours later.

*sigh*

Not to mention that is between 120 to 150 miles for me in one day to drive to and from work...

Supervisor's response to that?.."Good thing you have a car with great gas mileage!"

And for all of this.. while other employees get emails of "Oh thank you for taking this overtime shift and blah blah blah.." does the night shift weirdo get anything when she takes on 20 hours of overtime ...even an honorable mention? Of course not.

There.. like I said.. petty and selfish. I don't rant too often.. but I get sick of my work being ignored, my efforts to try and make sure that every single customer that we have is well taken care of, my ideas being brushed aside as if they didn't matter. It's stupid things... but I'll get an idea to make operations go more smoothly, like consolidating certain lists and making them organized, and easy for quick access. I posted said list... said list worked great. What happens? My supervisor takes down said list and puts the same damn list back up.. and then sends out an email saying that she's put up the consolidated list and that everyone should use them..etc..etc. No mention of who actually came up with the idea and who actually put it all together.

I'm going to get even more petty... but the freaking NAME of the stupid mascot for our department, I came up with while being silly. I told one of my co-managers... she loved it.. and mentioned it to our supervisor.
Guess who sent out an email with the name of our new mascot and who took credit for it? T'wasn't I.
It all sounds so banal and shallow. But it's been building up in me for some time . I feel hollow even ranting about it.. but if I don't then I fear my frontal lobe with pop.

Everything that I do right gets brushed off... ANYTHING that I do wrong seems to get magnified. That's not just me.. that's for alot of employees. There are the chosen few who are "special" and get the high five emails... but even a shift manager is just a regular schlepp with more responsibility.

Ok.. I think I'm done.. I need to rush or I'll be late. I feel a modicum better for ranting... if you made it through this rant without clawing your eyeballs out of their sockets then gold star to you my friend. Thanks for reading...