And then...

[meccahi]

the Terror sets in.

Received a call from my supervisor yesterday, in essence demanding to know whether or not I'd made a decision on whether I was leaving the company or staying. She wants the answer by Monday.

She said ( and I quote) "I don't think this is such a hard decision for you".

Like hell. This means giving up a steady paycheck, at a time when I have I don't know how many thousands of dollars in bills, between the car, and insurance, and credit cards, and my school loan. It means not knowing if I can pay those and not completely ruin my credit.

I asked her that if my answer was to leave, if they were just going to terminate my employment on the spot or if I would be able to work for the next month, because if I don't I know things are going to become very tight around here. Her response was " we'll let you know when we hear your decision".

Which means most likely I'll get maybe one, or two paychecks and then they boot me. If that. They seem to have a nice standard procedure of saying one thing then doing the complete opposite.

Which really means, things are going to be interesting.

And in all reality a decision to leave right now doesn't make logical sense.

On the other hand, it feels right.

I can't give any other reason than that. It feels right, and it makes me feel lighter inside just thinking about it.

I'm tired of coming home angry, depressed or just plain exhausted because of people. I'm tired of being the brunt of others anger and frustration. Our department is the dumping ground for all of our clients. We handle all of their complaints and problems, along with dispatching on alarms and troubleshooting issues. As well as assisting techs and who knows whatever else they decide to throw at us. Our job is literally, to deal with everything no one else wants to handle.

And I'm tired of it.

I don't like to talk about finances too much, but it means giving up an average of $500 a week after taxes. Which I know is pocket change to some people, but it's a hell of alot of money to me.

Either way, I can't see staying there. The prospect of it literally makes me want to do drastic things to myself.

So I guess the decision is made.

Here goes nothing..

Comments

[firebirdgrrl.livejournal.com]

Sending strength and anything else you need-*hugs*

[meccahi.livejournal.com]

Thank you.. I really do appreciate it.

[captain-snarky.livejournal.com]

The notion that you have to put up with misery for a steady paycheck is a crock of shit. Everybody is unhappy, everybody is worried about bills. Everybody is going to die anyway. May as well make it count.

[meccahi.livejournal.com]

Agreed. I know I'd rather be happy and broke as shit than be there any longer. Every person I know there is miserable, and I don't want to be them. Ever.

My biggest concern is making sure I have enough money to buy more materials to make more stock, and to have gas money to get to Louisiana. The other bills I can at least put off for a month.

[captain-snarky.livejournal.com]

I hear ya. I'm still trying to figure out exactly how I'm going to get my bidness to a faire. I've got stock figured out. More or less. But the renting of a booth and the paying of all the fees and shit is still a stumper. I've got time though. I think I'm just going to have to stage it so that my grants cover the expenses. Which means I'll end up taking longer than I want to, but with school I don't see any other way.

[jodijodijodi.livejournal.com]

Email me at jodijodijodi at cox dot net. We should talk - maybe I can help you find something temporary.

[meccahi.livejournal.com]

oh wow.. thank you so much.. I will..

[jodijodijodi.livejournal.com]

I didn't get an email from you yet, so I'll just send these along. Hope they help.

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/med/430638112.html

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/trp/430297689.html

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/ofc/433520842.html

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/ofc/432763525.html

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/etc/430706283.html

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/etc/430047840.html

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/wrg/433502138.html

[kraven251.livejournal.com]

The thing about being in a job you hate is you keep going..."One more week," before you know it you have been there 10 years, still hate the place but have lost alot of that energy and drive because it was sucked out of you.

You may have to do magic with money for a few weeks or even months, but it is worth it.

[eli-the-insane.livejournal.com]

$500 a week is hella more than I ever made at any time - but it's not worth it when it's a soul sucking job that makes you miserable. If it feels right to leave, then leave.

You can always find something to fill in a bit here and there if you need to; you're an amazingly resourceful girl.

I believe in you!

[sir-cat.livejournal.com]

You've got more balls than I do. Don't know if that's good or bad...

And you take home about $50 a week more than I do. Paycheck today was $451.35.

You've got my thoughts and prayers. {{{Hugs}}}

[dreaming-elise.livejournal.com]

Good money juju to you. Jobless for over 10 years now. I will hustle anything on my own time, but I won't do a j.o.b.

You are very well suited for this, once you get over the juggling of money and rough patches. You just need to keep getting better at not splurging when the money comes. That's something that needs constant discipline.

[nyghtowll.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm sending happy mojo in your direction and have nothing but faith in you! You will make the right decision and will be happier because of it! If you need a listening ear, give me a call and if I hear of any sweet jobs in your neck of the woods will let you know. I'm still signed up to Monster, so get random messages from them occasionally.

[horosha.livejournal.com]

*holds your hand*

[tempusfrangit.livejournal.com]

*hands you a beer*